I signed up another Avon representative this afternoon. She is going to strictly do internet sales. She is also my helper and she wants our "deal" to remain the same. It won't be long though and she will be ready to go out on her own.
So..the real reason I am blogging. I am just very sad today. I woke up this morning to "the reminder" that confirms that once again..I am not pregnant. I haven't even told Rich yet. I am just so tired of crying. I really thought I was pregnant this time..I think I just convince myself to the point that I have pregnancy symptoms. Crazy huh? Our plans for summer vacation 2009 are set in stone..and if I don't get pregnant by next month {September/June}..we will need to wait until December/September or January/October. I just don't want to be so pregant during July that I can't travel. But if I have a newborn..Rich, Trae and Izzy can go boating and do their hearts desire..and I can stay at our/rented lake house with Mattie and the baby..when we can't participate..I honestly wouldn't mind a bit:) I am not getting any younger. I will be 37 in 9 months. What a horrible, helpless feeling to know that you could soon be too old to have a baby. I am very, very thankful for our 3 healthy children..but..I/we would love to have another child..only if it is God's will. I know I need to quit stressing about it and just let it happen if it happens. I have watched {Under the Tuscan Sun} about 4 times this week. Katherine said, {When she was a little girl she used to look for ladybugs for hours and could never find a single one..until she fell asleep in the field..and when she woke up they were crawling all over her}.
Thank you for the use of your shoulder and ear today..I don't make it a habit to post sad things..I am good about sugar coating it when it comes to my blog.
Have a safe and fun filled Labor Day weekend!
5 comments:
I completely understand those feelings of making yourself have pregnancy symptoms. I've had them MANY MANY MANY times.
I really hope it works out for you!
sounds like you need a big hug. or a margarita. Come on over-I have both!
Hugs from Ga. to ya Jilly!
I hope that everything works out for ya real soon:))
Jilly ... I am so, so sorry ... I just know everything is going to work out. Can I tell you ... I was 37 when I had my first child (Griffin). So let me just say, in my opinion 37 is young ... and it's going to happen soon!
Big hugs to you ...
Missy
Stay calm, stress is against you when trying to conceive....keep on trying, and yes I agree, if it's meant to be it'll happen. Relax and keep on trying;have fun ;o)
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